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3 October 2005 | 10:57
posted by: byslantedlight in the_safehouse

Title: Death Threat
Author: Slantedlight
Format: Short Fic
Hatstand Archive: Yes if wanted
Circuit Archive: Yes if wanted
Pros-Lib: Yes if wanted
Slash/Gen: Slash
Disclaimer: I don't own them, I'm only playing. Sigh.
Notes: Inspired by the Safehouse Letter Challenge - with apologies to carodee for not being brave enough to actually answer her Challenge. Many many thanks to queenbamfie for beta-ing and encouragement. Any mistakes left are all mine…

This is my first ever, so feedback and critique all welcome!


Death Threat

Do you really think I can let you get away with what you did? Do you have any idea what a .38 in the lung, the heart, even the kidneys could do? It doesn’t have to be quick. You could linger. The blood leaking from you in drips, slow, painful, until it’s all over. You know.

You’re a selfish bastard, Ray Doyle. Think of everyone you’d leave behind. How would they like it? Do you have any idea what you’ve done to me? Of course not. I swear to god, if you ever charge in without backup again, without me, I will kill you myself. King Billy’ll be nothing.

We both know that I’ll never say this to you, except maybe for a quick shout in the heat of the moment. I’m not good with words. Not out loud. Read? Write? Quote you up a storm. Yeah, I can do that. I write to you something silly, even though you’ll never read it. You’ve got your painting, your books – and I write to you. All the things I can’t tell you.

Like now. Like how I’m going to kill you slowly, from the inside out, if you ever do that to me again. I’d have to, because I can’t stand it any more. I can’t stand the way my heart comes to a complete stop when I realize what you’re about to do, a split second too late to do anything about it. I can actually feel it slam to a halt you know, and it feels like there’s not enough oxygen in the world to get it going again. And it’s like my innards fall out, just drop right through me. Burning in my lungs, and suddenly I’m hollowed out, nothing left. You know you’re all I live for. I’ve told you enough times. Here.

I used to think Cowley and the job were important, but now neither of them mean much when I’m on my own . Used to be I could do anything on my own. Never planned on having a partner of any kind. Not my thing. But suddenly I don’t mind facing one of the Cow’s tirades when you’re there – behind me, beside me, across the room from me. I can feel you, see you getting all hot and bothered, and I can focus on what to say to calm you down. I can catch your eye and know, just know that whatever bloody cock up it is, isn’t worth anything compared to having you.

Shame I don’t have you.

Stupid bastard. You can’t see what’s in front of your eyes, unless it’s sneaking around in the shadows, up to something not quite kosher. When I realized how blind you were I used to try touch instead. Remember when Murphy caught me wrestling you on the couch in the break room? I nearly had a heart attack, especially when you started going on about him protecting your virtue – he’d caught on, you see, even if you hadn’t. Good bloke, Murph, he never did say anything. I don’t do that anymore. It’s not worth it, you don’t notice, and it just makes me ache. I know that you love me now, know that you’d die for me, like I would for you. We think together most times. We practically breathe together. Except it’s not that kind of closeness that I want. We’re breathing parallel, when I want to be your breath.
*

Bodie was playing with matches over the sink when Ray arrived, flames licking around a roll of paper, reaching higher and higher to his fingers. Black smoke coiled to the ceiling. “Landlady’s gonna love you,” he said, crinkling his nose at the acrid stench of it, then grinned widely. “Old flame, is it?”
Bodie stared at him.
“Old flame?” Doyle rolled his eyes in disgust at his partner’s blank face, “Get it? You’ve heard of a pun, haven’t you?”
Bodie looked away, turned on the tap and sent the cinders wetly down the drain.

“Nah,” he said. “Not very good with words, me.”

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Comments {34}

probodie

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from: probodie
date: 3 October 2005 19:35 (UTC)
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Very good, I enjoyed it, particulalry that last paragraph :-)

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byslantedlight

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from: byslantedlight
date: 3 October 2005 20:09 (UTC)
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Well thank you!

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byslantedlight

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from: byslantedlight
date: 3 October 2005 20:17 (UTC)
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Love your icon, btw! Hope you don't mind that all the icons I've been using are yours! (See?!)

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probodie

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from: probodie
date: 3 October 2005 20:20 (UTC)
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No, Im very flattered you like them, actually *grins*

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empty_mirrors

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from: empty_mirrors
date: 3 October 2005 20:11 (UTC)
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That last part sums them up beautifully.

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byslantedlight

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from: byslantedlight
date: 3 October 2005 20:19 (UTC)
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Thanks - sort of felt it had to go back to the Boys we know and love... : )

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Enednoviel

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from: enednoviel
date: 3 October 2005 20:17 (UTC)
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Nice little piece, and very well-written! You managed to stay very much in-character with both lads, but especially in the last paragraph! Hehehehe... so typical of Doyle! Thanks for sharing!

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byslantedlight

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from: byslantedlight
date: 3 October 2005 20:21 (UTC)
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Thank you so much!

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Caro Dee

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from: carodee
date: 3 October 2005 20:40 (UTC)
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It’s not worth it, you don’t notice, and it just makes me ache. I know that you love me now, know that you’d die for me, like I would for you. We think together most times. We practically breathe together. Except it’s not that kind of closeness that I want. We’re breathing parallel, when I want to be your breath.

Happy sigh. Perfect and sad. I love the way you've contrasted Bodie's intelligence and passion in the letter with his usual manner. And the interchange with Ray at the end illustrates Ray's cluelessness even more.

I'm so glad you were inspired by the challenge and you have absolutely nothing to apologize for, especially when the result is something like this. :-)

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byslantedlight

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from: byslantedlight
date: 3 October 2005 20:52 (UTC)
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Happy sigh back - I'm gobsmacked by these lovely comments! I was pretty nervous about posting, but everyone's making me feel really good about it! Thank you!

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Caro Dee

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from: carodee
date: 3 October 2005 21:10 (UTC)
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Well, that's the secret plan, you see. We get new writers hooked on the lovely feedback and then they write and write and write! Works super.

Welcome to Pros, my dear. :-) I see a lot of FB for lovely stories in your future.

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londonronnie

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from: londonronnie
date: 3 October 2005 20:42 (UTC)
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First one, eh? Not the last, I hope!

This was different. I liked it a lot, especially the last para. Poignant...

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byslantedlight

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from: byslantedlight
date: 3 October 2005 20:55 (UTC)
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Very glad you liked it!
Writing all the way, sir... I'm too new to all this not to be, its such fun!
Great icon there - made me burst out laughing when I realised what it was, and I got some very odd looks!

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londonronnie

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from: londonronnie
date: 3 October 2005 21:05 (UTC)
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Great icon there - made me burst out laughing when I realised what it was, and I got some very odd looks!

Well, let's face it - how can you go wrong with a Bodie icon?

Not possible, is it...?

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the_cornettist

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from: the_cornettist
date: 3 October 2005 21:33 (UTC)
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I enjoyed reading this - it really made me feel so much for Bodie, poor little soul, and I know I'm echoing what everyone else has said, but still:

Loved the last para.

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byslantedlight

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from: byslantedlight
date: 4 October 2005 01:09 (UTC)
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Thank you! Feel free to echo away, I'm all warm and fuzzy right now! ; )

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from: anonymous
date: 3 October 2005 22:30 (UTC)
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I thought this was a beautiful piece of writing. Thanks for sharing it. (pb)

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byslantedlight

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from: byslantedlight
date: 4 October 2005 02:54 (UTC)
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Thankyou - my pleasure!

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P.R. Zed

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from: przed
date: 3 October 2005 23:26 (UTC)
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Wow.

Bodie's letter is perfect, but what really makes this for me is that final bit with the two of them. Poor Bodie.

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byslantedlight

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from: byslantedlight
date: 4 October 2005 03:01 (UTC)
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I *do* feel kind of bad for treating him like that. P'raps I'd better make it up to him sometime..! ; )

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franciskerst

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from: franciskerst
date: 4 October 2005 16:29 (UTC)
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The switch at the end is very good and adds much to the significance of the letter; very moving.

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shayheyred

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from: shayheyred
date: 4 October 2005 02:41 (UTC)
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Terrific.

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byslantedlight

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from: byslantedlight
date: 4 October 2005 03:02 (UTC)
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Shucks. Thankyou! : )

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Nikki

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from: nakeisha
date: 4 October 2005 07:40 (UTC)
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Mmmm very nice.

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byslantedlight

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from: byslantedlight
date: 4 October 2005 16:09 (UTC)
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: )

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wow! Impressed of England

from: anonymous
date: 4 October 2005 07:53 (UTC)
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Hey you. I'm feeling all hot and bothered myself now. Poor, poor Bodie. Nothing ever hurts quite as much as unrequited love does it!
Loved the story, and yes I did understand it. (Must have been all those lessons in Taunton and Chiddingfold you gave me!)

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byslantedlight

Re: wow! Impressed of England

from: byslantedlight
date: 4 October 2005 16:12 (UTC)
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Lol - just wish I'd had more time, maybe I'd've got you properly hooked! Trust me to leave at just the wrong moment. AND MS on stage... sigh...

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Doylebaby

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from: doylebaby
date: 4 October 2005 16:27 (UTC)
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I really enjoyed that, an excellent view of Bodie's feelings.

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byslantedlight

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from: byslantedlight
date: 4 October 2005 16:30 (UTC)
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Well thanks!

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from: metabolick
date: 4 October 2005 17:46 (UTC)
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Wonderful! B sure is eloquent on paper, isn't he? Too bad he can't articulate his feelings. I could almost feel what he feels when R is in danger, the description is so good.

I look forward to more Pros fic from you.

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byslantedlight

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from: byslantedlight
date: 4 October 2005 17:56 (UTC)
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Thankyou! Its dangerously fun to write..!

B sure is eloquent on paper, isn't he?
I love how the eps show the both of them with books, and reading, despite the action-man thing. Bodie too, tho' its much more subtle, I think. And Bodie's even teased by Cowley for pretending to be thick when he obviously isn't (can't remember which one that's in now, but it makes me smile every time)!

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from: anonymous
date: 4 October 2005 20:56 (UTC)
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Oh I'm so pleased that someone else appreciates the subtlety and enigma that's Bodie. I love Doyle as well, but he's more obviously complicated, if you see what I mean. Bodie deliberately understates himself and I think is more interesting and more of a challenge to write about. Isn't he?.....(pb)

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byslantedlight

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from: byslantedlight
date: 4 October 2005 21:08 (UTC)
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Well I've gotta admit I'm really a Doyle-girl, but Bodie has definitely grown on me for exactly the reason you say. I didn't *get* him for ages, but when you when you start looking deeper then he's got all sorts of onion-y bits! Lovely!

I love Doyle as well, but he's more obviously complicated
Yes, I totally see what you mean! Although all that obviousness makes me wonder what really lurks beneath too, you know?!

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from: anonymous
date: 4 October 2005 21:44 (UTC)
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oooh yes, I'd love to peel off Bodie's layers, and find out what's underneath...

Yes, maybe Doyle is deliberately obvious? I'm doubting my own beliefs now and disappearing up my own armpit. Good fun though. Cheers, (pb)

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